Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Thank You!

Really, THANK YOU!



I've been in a low place. I started to read Woman Hating by Andrea Dworkin, and I couldn't process what was written on the book jacket cover, the friggin book jacket, and I started to cry. I'll take the pain, I'll take the fatigue from hell, and I'll take all the weird symptoms, but I can't handle not being able to read.

I've only been blogging since mid February of this year, so it's just amazing to me that I've already found a community of bloggers I care so much about, and who, when I'm in trouble, show up and give heartfelt support and encouragement. I read your comments and emails and started to cry, in a good way. Just thinking about your response gets me weepy, because I am so touched by your kindness.

Finding the best way to deal with these problems may take some time, so I’m focusing on learning how to be productive in spite of them. I've been reading your blogs and even commenting some. I hope to start posting somewhat regularly, but frankly, I'm a little worried about putting up posts or comments that are literally nonsense. I hope someone will tell me if I do that!

Bah, this post was supposed to be about all of you, and it ended up being me me me. I'm very annoying that way when I don't feel well.

So really, thank you so much for all of your support. It means so much to me, and it helps more than I can say.

25 comments:

Madame DeBarge said...

Just work on feeling better.
But don't think you can get away without the Monday Bunny Blogging. I need a weekly dose of Bumble!

manxome said...

Happy birthday. I hope your day is distraction-free, peaceful, and serene. :)

For the record, I am fluent in nonsense.

Suebob said...

Don't worry about blogging nonsense posts. I do it all the time!

Hug.

Laurelin said...

I so understand the pain of not being able to read- I've been through that in my 'psychotic'/obsessive/whatever the medical profession like to call it stage. I found that to be the worst experience. But it will get better. I tried reading little bits at a time, and focussing on pictures that made me smile.

Love and hugs, Spotted Elephant. We love you. xxx

asdgasdfaserwe said...

Your blog is for you. Write about whatever it is that you need to express. I'm glad you're feeling supported, spotted elephant.

XXX

Sly Civilian said...

"Bah, this post was supposed to be about all of you, and it ended up being me me me. I'm very annoying that way when I don't feel well."

the trust to show ourselves at our most disorganized, or most self-centered...(i do this too...) still says a lot about the people who are there listening. I remember going on one all about me rant that made about no sense whatsoever in the middle of a panic attack. my friend sat there for the whole thing, and when i realized what i'd just put her through...she stops me from apologizing, and says: as long as you were talking, i knew you were okay.

I cried.

Anyhow. I'm not trying to be tear inducing...i'm trying to say that it's been really good to be a reader here.

Sally's Life said...

There are some bloggers who find it impossible at times to blog due to their medical conditions - and some whose blogs reflect their medical conditions - and this space is shared by bloggers with impairments, who know what it is like. Anything, anytime, it is for you, and reflects who what and where YOU are. This is the place where you do not have to worry about that. Be what you need to be when you need to be it. One word is enough; whether it is "Hi" or "Help".

hexyhex said...

*hug*

I completely understand where you're coming from. I had a bit of a shitty head day yesterday... I half dosed on my meds (stupid hexy!) then went and ate a bunch of sugar (stupider hexy!). I was trying to explain something to R and the words just wouldn't come out right... and then they wouldn't stop coming out. It's horrible to lose track of your language, especially when it's so important to you.

Just concentrate on getting through this. We miss your posts, but we're all thinking about you and hoping you'll be well again soon. Go SpottedE!

And yeah, I totally know what you mean about this community being so welcoming so quickly. *smile* You're a big part of that for me, so I want to know you're OK!

Biting Beaver said...

Take your time SE, we'll be waiting for you when you come back. In the meantime, please take care of yourself.

Biting Beaver said...

OH, and Happy Birthday To You!!!

EL said...

Yes, the blog community DOES resemble a gang of snuggling baby elephants! :) YEA!

neuralgourmet said...

Oops, I'm late to this post. Everybody else has said everything I would have said. But really, don't worry about posting nonsense. After all, I do it at least once a day and people seem to enjoy it. I blame the dumbing down of America. ;-)

Get better soon.

Kim said...

That Elephant picture and your words -- I kid you not, I'm getting all watery-eyed! :)

Big ol trunk hug to you and That Bumble!

witchy-woo said...

What everyone else said.

And I get the feeling of support from blogging friends too - and you're a part of that for me too, yunno?

Take care of you.
(hug)

witchy-woo said...

Oh! And Happy Birthday!
xxx

cameo said...

happy day to you! we're all still here, whether you make sense or not. i'm with manxome - i get nonsense real well too. feel better!

gandhi rules said...

I wish you health and a good birthday week.

lost clown said...

Good lord do I know what that feels like.

*hugs* you kick ass.

lost clown said...

oh and HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Justjuliefornow said...

Happy Birthday and keep posting whatever comes out. I hope Mr. Spotted E appreciates you;-)

brownfemipower said...

i would tell you happy birthday in spanish by who the hell knows how to spell that!!!! :-)

take care of yourself, as one poster said, we'll be here waiting...xo

quakerdave said...

When you're cool, people dig you. Hang in, be well, keep on bloggin'.

quakerdave said...

When you're cool, people dig you. Hang in, be well, keep on bloggin'.

Aishwarya said...

*hug*

Did I miss your birthday.

You are an amazing woman, which is why we're all here. hope you feel better soon.

Dubhe said...

Feliz cumpleaƱos!



...I cheated, I looked it up. I feel bad now.